Blog Post No. 5- What's Fair
I'm actually going to start us off with a song this time, if you don't mind. I've been a Blondshell superfan for a couple years now and since we're headed into a new album cycle there's new singles that are really knocking my socks off. This is a track called, What's Fair to enjoy while you read.
I love the connections between my tastes that reveal themselves over time. In this case, a Simlish version of What's Fair was featured in the new Sims 4 expansion pack. Sims need sad songs about their moms, too! I'm seeing my mom this weekend. It's my oldest sister's birthday today and we're all going to meet up at her house later in the week to celebrate. The last time I geared up to drive it was to my Mom's house, a drive double the length. I had a panic attack so bad I couldn't get on the freeway. That was for my Mom's birthday, they're very close together. Two Aries women, both played major parts in raising me. When I was 16 and in a relationship that neither I nor my Mom realized was abusive, I moved in with my sister. She's only 6 years older than me and when I turned 23 I had to reckon with the fact that when she was my age she was the legal guardian of her teenage sister. I couldn't have done that! She's superwoman!
Even now, a couple months shy of 26, I don't think I am qualified. Granted, I do have distinct and profound struggles that inhibit me from child rearing activities. The idea of driving someone to school and having to wait in a packed parking lot is enough to start my stomach cramping right now and that's not the case for a lot of parents and guardians. It's actually baffling to me how easy getting around is for people. My sister can drive to the gym in the morning, then drive home and shower and get ready, then drive back into town for work. I drove three times in the past two weeks and it has taken me out so bad I couldn't sit upright to clock in to my work from home gig and the sensations in my heart and digestive system need studied in a lab. I know by going into this I am othering myself and creating unfair comparisons. There are areas that I excel where other people may struggle, so when it all shakes out that plants us all on pretty even ground. It's just very impressive to me when people can just go. (Sidebar I really like italics and they take so much effort to write with HTML it's like I have to earn them).
I know I'm not super on-topic here, but it's all connected I swear. Sims, Blondshell, my sister, my mom, my agoraphobia, the fact that as I type this my stomach is cramping in a way that makes me feel like I might actually die. This is just a Thursday for me. Trill isn't home yet so I'll just coast through this wave alone. What's fair?
xoxo char/trill
April 17th, 2025
I love the connections between my tastes that reveal themselves over time. In this case, a Simlish version of What's Fair was featured in the new Sims 4 expansion pack. Sims need sad songs about their moms, too! I'm seeing my mom this weekend. It's my oldest sister's birthday today and we're all going to meet up at her house later in the week to celebrate. The last time I geared up to drive it was to my Mom's house, a drive double the length. I had a panic attack so bad I couldn't get on the freeway. That was for my Mom's birthday, they're very close together. Two Aries women, both played major parts in raising me. When I was 16 and in a relationship that neither I nor my Mom realized was abusive, I moved in with my sister. She's only 6 years older than me and when I turned 23 I had to reckon with the fact that when she was my age she was the legal guardian of her teenage sister. I couldn't have done that! She's superwoman!
Even now, a couple months shy of 26, I don't think I am qualified. Granted, I do have distinct and profound struggles that inhibit me from child rearing activities. The idea of driving someone to school and having to wait in a packed parking lot is enough to start my stomach cramping right now and that's not the case for a lot of parents and guardians. It's actually baffling to me how easy getting around is for people. My sister can drive to the gym in the morning, then drive home and shower and get ready, then drive back into town for work. I drove three times in the past two weeks and it has taken me out so bad I couldn't sit upright to clock in to my work from home gig and the sensations in my heart and digestive system need studied in a lab. I know by going into this I am othering myself and creating unfair comparisons. There are areas that I excel where other people may struggle, so when it all shakes out that plants us all on pretty even ground. It's just very impressive to me when people can just go. (Sidebar I really like italics and they take so much effort to write with HTML it's like I have to earn them).
I know I'm not super on-topic here, but it's all connected I swear. Sims, Blondshell, my sister, my mom, my agoraphobia, the fact that as I type this my stomach is cramping in a way that makes me feel like I might actually die. This is just a Thursday for me. Trill isn't home yet so I'll just coast through this wave alone. What's fair?
xoxo char/trill
April 17th, 2025