Blog Post No. 14- The Craft Lady
My best friend just left from spending the better part of the day at my house. We've been friends since we were ten and I feel so lucky that we still find it cathartic, calming, and peaceful to be around one another. We seriously just sat on the couch cross stitching and watching Bones and I can't think of a better way to spend a Sunday.
It's been a while since my last blog post. I wrote that from my parents house and now I'm back at my own house. As it usually goes, it's okay being there right up until it's not. I've gotten quite skilled at packing all my things before bed and leaving in the morning. This time it was because my dad was really fucking mean to me. I don't want to divulge details, just to say that it sent me reeling and I'm really glad I just left and came home to take care of myself.
Anywhoooo! I'm home and it's nice. I havent been sleeping well in the wake of all the childhood trauma dust that's been kicked up and stuffing me up. But I'm coping, and I have things to look forward to. Like my rose blooming! I've had my eye on this special variety of rose. I'm sort of a rose nerd, I get it from my mom. We've pored over the David Austin Roses website and flyer and this color has always jumped out at me. She's called, "Ebb Tide." Isn't that evocative! My mom got me in our family secret santa this year and lo and behold when I opened my box it was a pale blue planter and the pre order information for this rose. Now that I have potted her and nursed her for a few months it's finally time for the first bloom and the wait was so worth it. It has a rich, deep rose smell with notes of clove. I love her, I love her, I love her.
On top of best friend visits and roses blooming, my oldest sister also came and spent the day with me last week. She has so much more energy than me that when we get together it feels like I get plugged into a power source higher than I'm used to. It's electrifying! We get so much done! I had the vague plans sketched out for a quilt then she came in and by the end of the day we had a NEW plan and 5 out of 6 sample blocks for the quilt done. I'm still dizzy!
I'm glad the people around me care so much. Sometimes I worry that they're onl rallying around me because they think I'm fragile and weak, but I know that in my head and in reality they probably just like to be around me and do fun crafts. If I am the fun craft lady that is alright with me!
I haven't been reading or watching anything too profound lately. Mostly I'm just recuperating and remembering my value separate from family and duty. I'm alive and creating and for that I am very, very grateful.
I have started the revisions/rewrites of my novella from 2023. It's been sitting in the back of my mind and I had a dream of the main character and took that as the signal. She was literally waving me down! I can't deny her place in my psyche, so here I am. Beginning again, taking it from the top. I love this story, and despite how surface level the first draft was it gave me the bones to start this time prepared. Maybe I'll tell you more sometime.
xoxo char/trill
May 25th, 2025
It's been a while since my last blog post. I wrote that from my parents house and now I'm back at my own house. As it usually goes, it's okay being there right up until it's not. I've gotten quite skilled at packing all my things before bed and leaving in the morning. This time it was because my dad was really fucking mean to me. I don't want to divulge details, just to say that it sent me reeling and I'm really glad I just left and came home to take care of myself.
Anywhoooo! I'm home and it's nice. I havent been sleeping well in the wake of all the childhood trauma dust that's been kicked up and stuffing me up. But I'm coping, and I have things to look forward to. Like my rose blooming! I've had my eye on this special variety of rose. I'm sort of a rose nerd, I get it from my mom. We've pored over the David Austin Roses website and flyer and this color has always jumped out at me. She's called, "Ebb Tide." Isn't that evocative! My mom got me in our family secret santa this year and lo and behold when I opened my box it was a pale blue planter and the pre order information for this rose. Now that I have potted her and nursed her for a few months it's finally time for the first bloom and the wait was so worth it. It has a rich, deep rose smell with notes of clove. I love her, I love her, I love her.On top of best friend visits and roses blooming, my oldest sister also came and spent the day with me last week. She has so much more energy than me that when we get together it feels like I get plugged into a power source higher than I'm used to. It's electrifying! We get so much done! I had the vague plans sketched out for a quilt then she came in and by the end of the day we had a NEW plan and 5 out of 6 sample blocks for the quilt done. I'm still dizzy!
I'm glad the people around me care so much. Sometimes I worry that they're onl rallying around me because they think I'm fragile and weak, but I know that in my head and in reality they probably just like to be around me and do fun crafts. If I am the fun craft lady that is alright with me!
I haven't been reading or watching anything too profound lately. Mostly I'm just recuperating and remembering my value separate from family and duty. I'm alive and creating and for that I am very, very grateful.
I have started the revisions/rewrites of my novella from 2023. It's been sitting in the back of my mind and I had a dream of the main character and took that as the signal. She was literally waving me down! I can't deny her place in my psyche, so here I am. Beginning again, taking it from the top. I love this story, and despite how surface level the first draft was it gave me the bones to start this time prepared. Maybe I'll tell you more sometime.
xoxo char/trill
May 25th, 2025